whoadieee

my ex of 4 years together and i use to tell each other how gorgeous we thought each other were all the time. we were so in love with each other, or so i thought. i had to go to the hospital for a couple of months but we prepared for this. she told me she would be there for me no matter what, ready to do whatever i needed her to do to help me adjust to my new life. she said she wanted everything that came with me. i wonder what happened to that girl. i ended up looking like this for a while and i never heard how gorgeous i was the 7 months after this again. she never told me she had me forever again. she never looked at me like she use to again. she never kissed me like she use to again. it only took 3 days for every feeling she’s ever felt about me and everything she ever said to me to change. while getting chemotherapy doctors gave me too much medication which put me to sleep for 3 days. i don’t know what she went through those 3 days but i woke up to another person. she didn’t tell me she loved me back for a little. she didn’t tell me she missed me too for a little. the 4 weekends she came to see me i had to ask if it was okay to hold her at night. i couldn’t even kiss her. when i needed her the most she left me alone with no love, affection, or support for 4 and a half months in the hospital and recovery hotel room. i then spent 7 more months trying to bring back the person that use to be in love with me to no avail. i did everything but get on my knees and beg her to tell me she wanted to be with me. only for her to return to that person she use to be 2 weeks after we broke up. she never even told me she was proud of me. it’s sad cause i’ll never love someone as much as i love her even though she doesn’t deserve it. i’ll never love anyone again.